Been having some reflections lately. may be it is time to write it down before I forget. I feel safer to blog here rather than on facebook where everyone can see your post. (I know that there are some settings, etc, to avoid that....but anyway). At least, people who don't really know me wouldn't keep checking / searching for what I wrote....(well, my thought only, I know that's not true in some sense)... The fellowship at company has challenged me to think in a very different way. The brother I met there was a "middle-year" guy being a daecon in another church. He was very devoted in spreading gospel within the city by visiting the poors and the elderlys. Having been so many years staying inside "church". I rarely challenged the idea of a "church". I stayed inside a building busy "serving" people and if not too mistakenly, my God. But how about the people outside this "church"? Those living around this building? Is a church merely a place where middle class people get together, raising them and live out the image of Jesus? I doubt. Many times I said I didn't know what I want to do. I am fine with my job with occassion complains on how meaningless crunching numbers can be. Sometimes I told myself that working itself is a meaningful way of serving if I could act out the image of God. Of course, it is a meaningful way. But is this direction what God called me to do? May be I should pray more about this, about the path of my life. May be not mine, it is God's. Meanwhile, stay focused on what's in front of me. Next year will be a challange of living in another country for such a long period of time. Sometimes I doubt if I can handle that or will I go astray and forget about God there. On the other hand, I know I lack the independence and strength to walk my life further. Many times, I think too much with my legs floating on air. May be it is time to get to the ground and walk. Don't ask me what's the ultimate goal because simply I can't tell. But I know God is by my side and telling me the next step. Keep praying. This is the core message I got this year. (Though I am praying enough) |